it begins to become grey at a far away place on the ocean plane How can sadness be tranquil and pure white? On my face Still holding A bit of shallow helplessness
You use lip language to say you have to leave That sadness slows down without a sound The turbulent tide You understand when hearing It’s not the wave but the sea of tears
Turn around and leave (You have words you cannot say out) Can’t say break up The sea crow and fish love each other It was only an accident Our love (The love given out) Difference existing all along (Cannot come back) The dust in the wind (Waiting) Unexpectedly accumulates into hurt
Turn around and leave The sky blue Coral Sea Missing the momentary paleness At the time you and I (You and I both) Were not mature and honest enough (Shouldn’t) The passion is not there anymore (Your) Smile cannot be forced Love is deeply buried in the Coral Sea.
How can the devastated sand carving be rebuilt? How can love that has cracks be covered up? It was only that everything Ended too fast You say you cant set your mind to rest
What expectation is hidden in the shell? (Waiting for the flower to blossom) We both already have no mood to guess Facing the sea wind The salty love I cant taste what future there still is
6:54 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005 I hope you are doing fine out there without me Cause Im not doing so good without you The things I thought you would never know about me were the things i guess you always understood So how could I have been so blind for all these years And this I only see the truth through all this fear living without you And anything I have in this world It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me I cant take another day without you Cause baby, I could never make it on my own 've been waiting so long just to hold you And to be back in your arms where I belong Im sorry I cant always find the words to say When anything Ive ever known gets swept away Cause I dont go a lot And everything I have in this world It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me And every day alone I see Some is standing still for me And you are not here Im sorry I cant always find the words to say When anything Ive ever known gets swept away Cause I dont go a lot And everything I have in this world It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me
4:09 PM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005 Girl I know we had some good times Its sad but now we gotta say goodbye Girl you know I love you, I cant deny I cant say we didnt try to make it work for you and I I know it hurts so much but its best for us Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust So I will walk away so you dont have to see me cry Its killing me so, why dont you go
So why dont you go your way And I will go mine Live your life, and I will live mine Baby you will do well, and I will be fine Cause we are better off, separated
2:21 PM
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2:12 PM
Sunday, November 06, 2005 phew, my first entry for the month. what shall i say? new month new problems and new challenges. thats always the case for me.
having my cup of coffee right now and finding some thoughts to what i should write. everything have been going little challenging in my life right now. at work and of course personally as well. for work, i guess i just need alot more time to adapt to my new store manager. i hope i will adapt to him soon coz really, its tough working with people that you just cant seems to get along. and i dont wanna drag myself to work, i wanna come with ease in me. nothing else.. got to set up the christmas retail later, long day i can foresee but i guess its going to be worth it. have already start skuing the itemz, all i need is just to reaarange them. ok enough about work..
too many challenging obstacles are getting through us once again. can we pull it through?
12:05 PM
Sunday, October 16, 2005 im brainwashed by own thoughts. this stupid devil in me kept putting shit into my brain that
practically cant function properly. i cant move, i cant breathe, i feel like killing everyone around me
coz everybody irritatez me. dont ask me why im like this, coz i dont know and i dont know whats the
caused of all this. i need to be alone, alone to kill all my thoughts, when im back, its either for the
better or for the worse..
when i usually reach at this stage of time, its not going to be good! just freaking help me... if you can!
4:16 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005 we have reached that point in time where everything is going wrong. the laughter and all those times that we always spend is lessening and lead us another way. we mistook all this, thinking maybe its just not love? maybe we are simply sick and tired of each other? maybe we shouldnt even be in the first place? or maybe its just time for us to be apart? but what ever reasons thats stated, i still couldnt find the clue on why ur still intact in me. i miss you alot, i miss us like before. i miss those times when everything we did were all so fine. nothing can start us to fire. nothing can stop us from having that smirk on our face. even a short period of time can make our day. everything is so different now. and im tryiing to find ways to be back on the same track again. are u willing, to go through in finding our ways again? what ever you do love, nothing can stop me for feeling for you.
i love you..
12:15 PM
phew crazy week this have been. but managed to pull it through. work have been fine, management movement is happening right now. looks like i have yet to adapt to shareen yet and she has to go to another place yeah. but what ever it is, you have been great. thanks for your patience.
i was trapped in the life 2 days ago! its not nice at all. goodness, if anyone out there is afraid of darknezz. pls say some prayers before getting in yeah. it sucked! its freaky, so afraid that i will see something or someone staring right straight at me.
12:06 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005 im in a fcuking cranky moodzz! gdness..
12:44 PM
